January 2010
this is where thinking gets you.
i see how this is, how you all want it to unfold. and that’s not in my favor. i see how i lost you and how i might never have that chance to get you back. it kills me to see you anymore, kills me. why? because i still love you. but looking at you, and seeing that your feelings can’t be as strong as mine, kills me even more. it makes me feel like what we had was a waste of love,...
this.song.gets.me.
you now have her; and you say that you in love. you say that she’s made you the happiest you’ve been in a while. she should take that as a major complainment; i’d do anything to make you happy. I miss seeing those repetative smiley faces and on going hearts. our late night conversations that explained completely everything. you happend to be my best friend. you were the person...
two text messsages.
You texted me for the first time in forever today.
It felt amazing.
It felt like once, in months, you cared.
I liked it, truthfully.
Even though I know that right now your far from single.
He texted me for the fist time in forever too; today.
It felt even more amazing.
it felt like for once in years, he cared about me more then he cared about her.
i loved it, truthfully.
Even though...
I've been heartbroken but have i ever caused a...
nothing or no one even comes close to describing the pain that I’m feeling, the pain i have been feeling. I’ve been feeling pain, this stabbing feeling through my heart, for years now. ever since she came into his life, leaving me worthless. why? why do i take this all so personally like it’s an insult on my part? am i that self conscious anymore?
i put to much into people,...
You’ve been in my life forever,
Yet nothing seems right.
You make everything feel like it’s just whatever,
And that it will only last one night.
I want something more then this resistible friendship,
I want someone who will always be there.
You proved to act on your gentlemen ship,
But through all this I still seem so unaware.
Should i stop all this frustration?
Because all...
say what you want but i know the truth.
I remember every detail about almost every single text message.
Call me a stalker, I just seemed to care.
I remember every sad face, heart, and smily.
Tell me I love you, and i won’t come even close to denying it.
I remember those restless nights because my heart was beating so fast that i could barley breathe.
Explain to everyone I’m dying to have you back, I’ll blush...